A bad experience that I need help to sum up?

ok u would sum it all up as rape. you need to call the police and get into some counseling before you got your mind all worked up about it.. that's what i did and i regret it cause i cant and will not trust any guy. well there is like 1 or 2 guys, like my pastor and maybe my dad but its awkward to still be around them i make the conversation as small as possible and then awkwardly walk away cause i don't really know how else to react. so i strongly suggest getting a female councilor so you can get some mental help cause it will get to you before you know it.. hope this helps.